AGES AGO.. and what am I?

Wow, it has been forever since I have typed in a blog here. The last year and half has been one serious roller-coaster in my life. School has changed my life so much more than anyone knows. I have became so much closer to my Father in Heaven, to the point where my faith is now unshakable. But the biggest change in my life has been my hearing, I have heard so much more than I thought I ever would. I now have full blown phone conversations now, sit on the porch and listen to the birds, water fountains, my nieces laughter.. the very very simple things in life to "hearing" people. But very very valuable things to a person like me. But there is still something that bugs me.

This gets me to my next point. What am I? Am I hearing or deaf?? Both? I feel torn in between the two. Like my best friend said this evening, "I feel at home in the deaf world, but I am a completely different person in the hearing world. Man, I am bipolar!" I feel that same way. Like, no matter what, with most people in my life, I can't be who I REALLY want to be. Seems like hearing people never really understand. They get frustrated when I ask for a repeat or when I need them to look at me when they speak or talk slower. Sad things is, this applies a lot to my family. I am getting to the point where I want to give up at times, I got a cochlear implant for a reason, they don't seem as appreciative over it. But I know that they are. But at times, they can't accept my wishes of simply not wanting to wear my CI at times. Haven't they ever thought that it gets annoying to have something on your ear more than half of the 24 hours of the day? That occasionally you get a "system overload". I guess not. I hate to bring people down with this, but I am sorry, sometimes hearing people are annoying! They don't know when to shut up, but I am glad that I have the advantage to turn my ears off or else I would have already knocked out half of the people I know. And I am glad I don't like my speech so I can easily turn off my desire to say things. I am a bit... odd, don't ya think? But what I really do wonder sometimes is.. where do I belong?

What a life!!

Well.. I am sorry.. so so so sorry. I haven't written on here in forever!!! so what is new? Hmm the infection I had back during thanksgiving.. never went away so I had surgery 2 1/2 months ago to get my tonsils removed.. fun let me tell you!! Now, my CI is doing amazingly. It is wonderful to be able to hear. I got activated in December and it was interesting at first.. everything sounded like robots, and then daffy and donald duck, and then women sounded like men and men sounded like women.. haha that was funny. But now, everything sounds like it should. It is amazing!! Ok other new stuff. I am moving!! To Rexburg, ID to attend BYU-I. And I must say, I am excited to get away from here. And be with my best friends out there. Let's see how well I can focus on my homework. lol. Well, I hate to cut this short, but I gtg.. the oven is beeping and I don't want dinner to burn!!!

Thanksgiving week scare.....

So.. uhmm I have been sick this week. Turns out it is sinus, throat, and respritory infection. Thanks Dr. Merwin, and nurses for being my life savers. I am coughing, having a runny nose, drainage from implanted ear, and the classic..... strep. I hate it!!!! Anywho, it started to scare us a little but because thanksgiving day my Uncle rough housed me and messed with my head. We usually pick on eachother and whatnot, but he forgot about my surgery, and that I was definately in the mood to be messed with. He grabbed my head and immediately pain shot through and my ear buzzed like crazy. Mom and I kept and eye on everything. But from where I have been sick, I fell asleep on the recliner at my mammaws after dinner. And then I came home to sleep another 3 hours. And I was running a fever. Well today I really, really overslept.. woke up at 1 and I was coughing and having drainage and my ear was throbbing. We were thinking the infection got to my implant site and my ear. It was puffy, but that was normal since surgery.. but it was puffier than normal. I thought it was from my uncle accidently rough housing. Well, the good news is.. EVERYTHING is treatable with 500 milligrams of Amoxocillin 2 times a day for 10 days. So yeah.. infection has spread.. what do you expect with sinus, throat, and respiratory infections?? And he said to get plenty of rest.. let me tell you.. I havent gotten out of bed all day except to get chicken noodle soup and to use the bathroom. And all of these drugs are making me loopy.. but quite irritable as well.. sadly. I dislike alkaseltzers. But on the bright side.. all will be well. But I really dont want to go to the family photoshoot tomorrow.. oh well. But I still hope everyone on here has had a great thanksgiving week.. I did happen to enjoy the food though.. hahahaha. GOOBLE.."